Unposted parts, I'd have loved to keep in.

....Many days I'm going from one thing to another with no pause in between. ie packing a box, retaping one that's been opened, helping the 2 yr old get milk so she doesnt try to pour it herself, not getting there to help in time and then helping to clean up a milk flood, mediating a disagreement about how many save levels one game boy game has so GK or J doesnt erase someone's saved game, and problem solving why a soda/vinegar rocket car wasn't working as anticipated, washing dishes left over from supper the previous night (no dishwasher leads to periodic avoidance of dishes), refeeding the kitty because lil GM has decided the cat would prefer milk in her kibbles, needing to scoop the litter box but that will have to wait since I still haven't made breakfast and its 10:30 am. Crimeny!!!.....

.....I tease myself that I like children until they can talk. But the truth of the matter is that fulfilling the needs of a baby is so much easier than fulfillng the needs of a more complex individual such as a child of reasoning age. I was only beginning to "get" my big kids when I decided I wanted another baby. Oh I wouldn't change that decision for all the world!!! But I actually miss the other two kids. Before the baby came I was just hanging with dd and ds and I said to them "I wish I'd had you guys for friends when I was a kid, because y'all are really fun." Heck I have em now and they're fun, but also a bit of work too....

....My right brain says everything will be different when we get back to being our own family, in our own space in Michigan. We won't be as stressed by Maryland's political woes. We wont just let things lie we'll take care of them right away. No one will be bored because we'll have so much to explore. My left brain says "all this--until the newness wears off, and the snow is 8 feet deep and the sweet new house has become a prison after 4 months indoors. Right brain says but..but...but...we'll go outside, and Left brain who knows RB best says "SUURE! when hades is as cold as Michigan." Right brain says "It's a new slate, it's a new yard, and here's a list of the all the fun things I want to do." Left brain says, "You like making lists, but I don't like using them, and we better buy snow suits." Right brain says "we can do crafts, and new grocery stores will be an adventure." Left brain says, "please don't let them cut paper into small bits that I have to clean up, and we saw those grocery stores they look just like the ones we visit now." Lest you laugh, my brain really does have these coversations. You might can guess which side wrote that one post--the seething post. Actually I think they may have written that one together. Who's to say. OH GOSH, what do I do if my right brain is an unschooler and my left brain is a schooler?...